Waiting to Try

I just recently turned 18 and I'm waiting to try to have a child (this waiting will last a few years hopefully, don't worry.)....But yeah I'm definitely not going to try until a few more years, but it is nice to imagine having a child...

And as for names, I really like Sydney May for a girl..... for a boy? I don't know. I want to incorporate my father into the naming process, like having the first or middle name William or Billy.

Not sure.

Anyways, that's about it.

Bye for now, this was just an update

A little rant about my fellow females.

Don't get me wrong, I love my "fellow females," but this whiney, "iMartyr" bullshit needs to stop.

I was on Babycenter.com's community today, and I asked a simple question: DO YOU THINK I'M PREGNANT.

I posted this in the teen section, where you would seem like adolescents would support eachother..... and whaddayaknow. They're BITCHES.

I felt so degraded as they berated me, telling me there was no chance in hell I was pregnant because I was on the Depo Provera Shot. GOSH !!!! It's happened before, you screwy hornball kids! If you knew that, maybe you wouldn't be stuck with your fucked-up kid!!!

And what pisses me off more is that I got a comment from a sad & sorry daughter-of-a-bitch.

She said, in so many words, I WAS NOT PREGNANT ... she knew this because she had OH SO MUCH MORE knowledge than me because she experiences miscarriages and a stillborn.

Oh gosh. Here's some things that piss me off about that:

1. HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU MORE INTELLIGENT???
2. WHY WOULD YOU USE THAT TO YOUR ADVANTAGE IN CONVERSATION??? HOW CAN YOU USE YOUR MISCARRIAGE/STILLBORN TO MAKE YOU SEEM SMARTER??? THAT DISRESPECTS THE CHILDS MEMORY, DUMB SHIT...

And...

3. SHE SAID I HAD A 90-10 CHANCE OF BEING PREGNANT. 90% BEING THE NOT PREGNANT PERCENTAGE..

My lord ! What do they think of Jewish women--- STERILE?! (my avatar was the Star of David.)

Maybe that's why they hated me? I dunno, but I won't pull the Jew Card. It's like that woman pulling the "miscarriage" card. It's so passe.

Ugh.

Update #1

What I'm Listening to:
Tik Tok by Kesha

What I'm doing:
Waiting for a call, and for my mom to come home from work. Ugh.

My mom just got called into work, which I thought would be cool so I'd have some time for myself. However, now I'm just bored. Nothing to do, (other than listen to music) and my fiance's camera isn't working for me right now. Which makes life sucky, beucase I want to upload pics onto my computer! Wahh.

In more positive news, today was a good day at school. In more sad news, I got to go to the mall after. There was a man with one eye there, and I felt really bad that I was shocked at first, instead of smiling to him. (I smile to everyone.)

I also am too lazy and depressed to go get myself some decent stuff to eat. I've been drinking diet Pepsi though; which is ROCKIN' in case you didn't know ! Ha.

Anywho. I'm about to go learn more Hebrew so I can go to Yeshiva in Israel. Until I go on the Aliyah to Israel, I'm going to go back to live in the city soon (hopefully.) I want to live on the west side, where there's tons of middleeasterns. I'm not even joking, there's enough hummus to fill a landfill.

So, in conclusion --- I'll feel right at home.

I can't wait to move, but in order for that to happen, I have to start saving my social security checks! WHICH I AM MORE THAN HAPPY TO DO!!! I'm actually excited :)

I'm going to get a dog when I move to my new home as well. I'm thinking a nice little pitbull puppy to watch grow (they're fairly inexpensive, gorgeous, and sweet animals!)

And, if you noticed by the last sentence, I WILL NOT BE RENTING AN APARMENT . Ughhh I'm so sick of apartment living. For realll I need some solitude. Not the 8 year old neighbor playing loud french-horns at midnight.

Yeahh.

Well, anyways, done ranting & raving. :)

xx